Of course it will, as you know. Just try to make next time as soon as possible. "Practice makes perfect" - for performing as well as for practising.James Lister wrote: .....Oh well, maybe next time will be better...
I can empathise with that completely, James. Earlier this year I was at a guitar weekend course and played a couple of quartets and a solo in the final 'concert'.James Lister wrote:...I played 2 Carulli duets with Nick - fairly basic stuff which went pretty smoothly, but in the next two solo pieces (Allemande and Bouree from BWV 996) the nerves suddenly struck, and things went rapidly downhill...
I did think this would help a bit, as when I started recording myself, I found I would get really nervous, but over time this improved to the point where it doesn't bother me at all - but being in front of an audience is very different of course.Non Tabius wrote:...even recording a piece at home is not quite the same I think.
Thanks Nick - I've read some stuff on the web, and practiced some of the advice given there (and also here on Delcamp), and in my mind I can convince myself that it will help, but this time it didn't. I'll see if my local library can get hold of the book.Nick Payne wrote:I have an interesting book titled "The science and psychology of music performance". It has an entire chapter dealing with anxiety. It's a while since I read it, but it contains a statistic that somewhere around 15-20% of musicians have actually cancelled performances due to anxiety. The whole book is well worth reading. Published by Oxford University Press.
Perhaps... but my mind knows that I'm not, why doesn't my body get the message?paulcola wrote:I think this type of anxiety is caused by the feeling of being judged.
Sounds like a fun idea...paulcola wrote:I like to imagine that I am The Terminator whenever I get nervous about something.
Actually, this makes a lot of sense to me. In a previous career, I occasionally had to give talks at conferences - sometimes in front of an audience of over 100, many of these experts in the field. The first few times I prepared to the point that I more or less memorised everything I was going to say, but still got very nervous on the day, and generally things didn't go smoothly. A few years later, I'd become confident enough about my subject that I would just prepare my slides, and make up what I wanted to say as I went along, and the talks went much more smoothly (and were probably a lot more interesting to listen to).abremner wrote:The next bit is, I suspect, going to sound a little strange: I never decide what I am going to play until I am sitting at the mic, guitar in hand and ready to go.
David, that would have completely undone me! You were a real trooper not to run away screaming!Since it's time for True Confessions....
After reading this I immediately thought two things:James Lister wrote:Hi Folks,
Last night a group of past and present pupils of my teacher (Nick Fletcher) performed a concert in front of a small audience of mostly friends and family, in a church with a very nice acoustic here in Sheffield. A few of us played some duets with Nick, and we performed 2 or 3 solo pieces each. For most of us, this was only the second time we had performed in front of a seated, attentive audience (we did a similar concert last year, and I've played background music at a few events). I put a lot of work into the pieces I was playing, probably more than doubling my normal practice hours for a month or so leading up to the concert. I was very happy with how they were sounding, and felt fairly confident, but slightly nervous, when the night arrived.
I played 2 Carulli duets with Nick - fairly basic stuff which went pretty smoothly, but in the next two solo pieces (Allemande and Bouree from BWV 996) the nerves suddenly struck, and things went rapidly downhill. I did manage to get through them without falling apart completely, but there were quite a few very obvious mistakes, and a couple of points where I had to pause and restart a bar or two back. Of course, everyone told me it wasn't as bad as I thought, but I was still pretty disappointed after all the work I'd put in.
Fortunately, I had some time to recover my nerves before my final piece to close the concert (Tarrega's Mazurka in G), and this went without any significant hitches (possibly helped by half glass of wine at the interval).
It still amazes me how in my mind I can convince myself that it's no big deal, that everyone in the audience wants you to do well, and that no-one will mind of you make a few mistakes, and that even if it all falls apart, it won't be the end of the world, and yet still some mysterious self-destructive force totally (it seems) beyond your control sends instructions to your heart to start beating faster, muscles to tense, blood vessels to constrict, and your hands to start to shake.
Oh well, maybe next time will be better...