VERY beautiful, sensitive playing! Clean as a whistle!
You are 18? And self taught?
I know it took a lot of courage to post this, because I know you. The same thing happened to me with my two Mp3 offerings. I just did them for myself, was not satisfied at all, but just decided to put them up here to see if I could get some help. This is SUCH a supportive group!
Promethius has inspired me to try some videos, too. I have one "in the can" that I'm not ready to post yet. I learned a lot trying, though. And, Wollfang and some others are right. You need a lot more light than you think.
Also, I think, you look a lot worse on video than you do in real life. I know that, because there are lots of videos of me playing drums. I look like a dork. Still, I learned quickly how to change some things...
You don't look as tense in your video as I do in mine. I look like I'm EATING something
I don't think it looks that bad in real life.
But one thing I DO know...combating tension ANYWHERE in your body or mind is a lifelong task...
Keep up the good work! You will be a master, someday! Find a good teacher! Or he/she will find YOU!